Who am I?

Posted on | March 26, 2008 | 5 Comments |

Over the course of the various journals, columns and blogs I’ve written online, I’ve written more than a few biographies for myself. Some have been wordy, others brief. Some have detailed joys and disasters, while others are instead descriptive views of myself. Often, depending on the intended readers, it’s full of identifying details. In other places, they’re only identifying if you know me rather intimately offline.

Back in the days of the horrible ex (when he was still horrible, but not yet ex), he used to ask me who I was. “Who are you, Dee? Tell me who you are.” No matter what answer I would stammer out, it was always wrong – according to him. Because I was telling him what I was, not who. I couldn’t see the difference between descriptors and interests, and myself. I thought that they were just as effective a way of describing who I am.

And effective they are. But they’re a map – a 2D manifestation – of who I really am.

Would I tell him who I am, if he asked me now? Well, no. I’d tell him to fuck off (really. I’ve been waiting for years to run into him so I can look him in the eye, prove to myself that he doesn’t control he any more, and politely show him just how much I don’t care what he thinks). Can I tell myself who I am? Yes. I’m me. A simple answer that means nothing to any of you, and rather a lot to me. Because I know who I am, and I love who I am.

When Duke Orsino tagged me with this meme, rather than dismissing it as silly (which it has the potential to be), I instead got to thinking. What is my six word memoir? It’s not what I would have written a year ago, and it almost certainly won’t be what I would write in another turn around the sun. But this is what it is today:

Apparently paradoxical: I love my pain.

Am I talking of D/s? Am I talking of my migraines? Am I talking of (prior) loss and (impending) death of family members? All of those, none of those. Less and more. But it is my memoir, today.

Instructions:
1. Write your own six word memoir
2. Post it on your blog and include a visual illustration if you’d like
3. Link to the person that tagged you in your post and to this original post if possible, so we can track it as it travels across the blogosphere
4. Tag five more blogs with links
5. And don’t forget to leave a comment on the tagged blogs with an invitation to play!

I’m not tagging anyone for this. But if it appeals to you, you’re welcome to take it and run with it.

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5 Responses to “Who am I?”

  1. Mina
    March 26th, 2008 @ 5:43 am

    great meme… I still have to do mine!

  2. Gillette
    March 26th, 2008 @ 4:27 pm

    Beautiful, Dee…says so much to me about acceptance, love, Life and embracing all of it. Thanks.

  3. Curvaceous Dee
    March 27th, 2008 @ 12:13 am

    Mina, thank you – and I really liked your meme response as well!

    Gillette, you are most welcome. I do like to embrace: people, ideas, concepts, emotions, love and life :)

    xx Dee

  4. Secondhand Rose
    March 27th, 2008 @ 5:30 am

    That’s a beautiful memoir!

  5. Curvaceous Dee
    March 28th, 2008 @ 9:26 am

    Thank you, Rose :)

    xx Dee


  

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